I am finally letting go of the past; deciding to leave everything negative behind. I stumbled across an old note in my phone and found myself smiling while reading it. I felt proud of myself, that during the darkest days of my life, I was optimistic to move forward.
Here's a short letter I've written way back. No edits were made to preserve the emotions felt during the time I wrote it.
Moving on is least like "starting all over" but more of "continuing without". ~ Mitch Albom
I am getting well. I know I am.
I was hurt badly by the past but I am healing now. There are times that I still feel a bit of tingling in my chest but I guess its part of the process.
I am very much excited to wake up to that day that he, his memories, his voice, not even the sound of his name will affect me no more. Not even the littlest pain you could ever imagine. That day when I get to see him in a crazy crowd, I will be able to smile and nod at him and walk away without any regret nor pain; feeling proud, free and fearless. And I know, that day is coming.
The wounds are drying. The scars will forever be there. But what matters most is how I stood up after a hard fall. Soon, I will no longer miss him. I will be able to forgive him. Yes, I will.
They say experience is the best teacher, and he was such a good one. Someone who taught me what love really meant and how pain is just bluntly part of it. It was quite a tough and painful subject to learn. But I made it. Thank you for the lesson. I've surely learned a lot from it.
I will be okay. I am on my way.
I am... Almost there...
I am sharing this to everyone who is experiencing pain because of loving. Its okay. Its normal to get hurt. Just breathe. It will take a lot of tears. And heck a lot of time. But things do happen for a reason, right? You'll find true happiness soon. Everything's going to be okay. Trust me.
